The dull life

I know it's been a long time since I've wrote anything and I think it's because I feel as if my life is so boring and dull these days, which is a phrase I never thought would come out of my mouth, but it seems it has. I don't know how it happened I have always been pretty lively and full of energy and full of life always been up to anything, but it seems that I have become more and more isolated over the years and so slowly that I didn't realize just how alone and isolated I've become. It sucks! You would think that it would be just the opposite of when my kids were little,you know you get stuck home because of childcare issues or just the amount of money it takes to raise them you know not much extra leftover after their needs,but no I was always busy with play dates or outings or sporting events. So I was always busy and then usually on the weekends we would entertain. There was always something going on mostly fun. The point is I had an active life. It all seemed to slowly change when we moved to this area. I didn't change,but I have never felt as if I fit in here.I am a pretty open minded liberal person and I guess here in the bible thumping south my personality isn't very accepted or understood. You know these people want to shove their religion and their rigid beliefs down your throat, and close minded to anything but their beliefs. I mean come on I might not believe in some of their ideals, but I'm not going to criticize or put someone down or tell them their wrong. I don't have a need to control everybody and force my opinions and beliefs on anyone. Think George Bush! I mean come on! He is a warmonger! All to avenge his poor daddy! What a schmuck! I mean how many innocent military personnel have been killed for this rat bastard? It was all a big lie and now every country in the world feels justified in doing the same to us. I am surrounded by people who see nothing wrong with this, but are outraged that Clinton got a blow job in the oval office! Come on! Like he is the only president that cheated? Not hardly! So needless to say I have been looked down upon by these far right wing elitist Republicans, and as you can imagine we don't have a whole lot in common. Or there is a lot of beer drinking cigarette smoking nascar people. What choices I have. Don't get me wrong I have nothing against any group of people, but it doesn't mean I want to hangout with them. Ever. So I guess that has been a lot of why I am leading a dull boring life. I don't seem to be able to break it though.I am not the type of person to join a group to share feelings I have taken classes to keep myself busy and have learned about design, but I didn't do it to get a job.I had to retire from my job because of physical pain. So really where do you meet people? It's not like I have a ton of money to do things with. As a matter of fact it has been so long since my husband got a raise(8years) even though management has been given raise after raise and after bonus. The people who keep the company running or flying twenty four seven always seem to be the ones who get screwed. Unions aren't what they used to be thanks in part from the government and in part the unions greed. I think it's important your kids are exposed to all kinds of different activities they were all involved in all sorts of sports and extra circular programs we always came up with the money, but somehow all our money goes to luxuries like food and electricity now, and things today are so exorbitant. But even taking classes I didn't really meet anyone I wanted to hang around with. I keep asking myself if my kids were in this situation what would I do? Then I think about all I did that worked for my kids, somehow it doesn't work for me. I keep telling myself if I lived somewhere else that's a little more laid back. Like the beach. I would have friends. At least I keep telling myself I would. It seems so much easier for my kids to make friends I guess because at a young age kids don't care about anything but their world so they don't force their beliefs or make you feel less than them. I never stayed in one place growing up long enough to really make friends long term. It's funny that now that I have been living in one place I can't make any real friends no matter how much I try I have acquaintances but no real true friends. So that's why I live a dull life I never thought it would happen I'm a fun person mostly, but the older I get the more I don't feel like trying, but I don't want to be dull and boring either! What to do what to do. But even if I am dull and boring I am going to try to write more often I know I have lots of stories some funny from the past when my kids and I grew up together. Make sure you give your children lots of opportunities to experience different things and expand their little minds. And appreciate your friends for who they are and if you are lucky enough to have a least one really good friend hang on to them. They make life not so dull and boring!